Joy in my heart :)
>2005-09-15 - 6:19 p.m.
Haha, managed to get out of trouble for missing school yesterday. I heard that only a quarter of the cohort went for the OCS trip. Haha. Well, who would want to spend 5 hours at this place out of circulum time when promos are..less than 20 days away?
Haha. Took a pink slip and got out of school, then went to see my aunty who just gave birth at thomson medical. The place me and my sisters were born :)
Haha her baby's so cute. At one point he cried out like a warrior..how do I describe it. It sounded something like 'yeala yeala yeala yeala!' Haha! So cute. And we saw the process of changing pampers. Haha. Not a pretty sight. Green poo. But still a cute baby. Haha. He was crying before that but he finally stopped when my aunt cleaned him up. And he had a lot of hair. Haha.
After going to the hospital, I went home and changed, then walked to the doctor to try and get a MC for yesterday. And guess what. I succeeded! Even though it was a 50-50 thing because doctors aren't actually supposed to issue outdated MCs. Haha. I must have convinced her. I just told her the truth about why I needed it and she was so nice! :)
I have quite a lot of medication to take though. And I am really sick. Been having motion sickness quite a bit for the past few weeks, and it manifested itself one day when I puked out everything I ate after my first meal. Haha. The day Jiaxin and Fifi came down at midnight :) My head hurts when I move it around or bend down to grab something. I think it must be the phelgm stuck in my nasal ducts. Is that what it's called? Not too sure.
I realised something.. All the guys that I think are cute in school all have names starting with 'jo'.. haha. 'jo...', 'jo....' and the cutest has the longest name 'jo......' haha! Dawn and Rennie know who it is. even rennie agrees that he's cute... ah. He is so charming. haha! :X hope nobody else knows who I'm talking about. But in church, haha. It's a totally different matter. I hope I'm not shocking anyone.
Tomorrow the junior girls will be meeting and making clay boats for our seniors. Haha. Happy. I miss the girls so much. It's Xin Yun's birthday today. Hahs. Oh and on Saturday there'll be formal dinner. How exciting. Don't know what I'll wear though. Just spent $120 on a top and pants at GG>5. I really love that shop. Feel quite bad actually. But I take comfort in the fact that I've saved up all my hong baos save for one year, and that in secondary school I saved my allowance occasionally.
Been trying to do it now by limiting my spenditure on food to $2 a day. I need to lose weight too. Haha. Maybe I should go on a porridge diet like what my sister was forced to do because of her jaw. She looks so much skinnier now. Haha. She said me and jac(other sis) look fat now because she's skinny now. Geee....ok. Haha. Actually I read her diary entry on her friendster blog. Was quite touched. Never knew about her breakup with her boyfriend. But in a way it's better for her..he was never really good for her. Haha. She should go with her friend from her secondary school. He seems a lot better. Shall not name him just in case. And I got a glimpse into her thoughts at this moment, something quite precious to me especially since she can't talk for now.
'at times i thank god that i was kinda lucky i didnt get run over by a car after the fall and dat all my limbs are still intact. but i still find myself trying to distance myself frm god, no idea why too..
perhaps i found it kindof hard to believe dat god wld exist and have allowed my ma to go through dat kind of suffering
den there are all these believers of god who claim all sorts of things abt my ma, that she was healed no matter wat. even wen she was at death's door they said it. how can i ever believe such ppl or are these so called believers trying to deceive themselves that they have tapped into some higher power? and after do they ever question themselves that they were wrong.. or they just say that it was meant to be and forgot watever it was they said earlier..'
:)
I'm sure we all miss her too, sis(funny how we never call each other by terms of endearment but by each other's names). I know how you feel, and I'm quite peeved by the fact that her funeral service was held by somebody who didn't really know her. But mummy was never the fussy type(well, except in food and things like that). At least she's in eternal peace at last, no longer having to battle with her illness and no longer having to bear hy and his nonsense. All in all, she's in a better place, even though we miss her here. But even though she's temporarily gone from us, we still have each other no matter what. I know she would like us to stick together and be strong. I know you don't know that I read your entry, and you probably won't ever read this, but I love you and jac.