Well, what shall i call this?
>2005-07-03 - 9:02 p.m.
i'm very depressed now. i'm eating durian ice cream and i feel like i could finish the whole tub. eating is a form of relieving stress for me. how unhealthy. i feel like my head could burst with SO MANY thoughts going around and around in my head. i keep listing the reasons why i should quit and the reasons why i feel like i can't. sometimes i'm so thankful for a novel i can drown myself in. just take on the personality of the main character for awhile, and pretend my only worries are about relationships, as is the case of chick lit.
i've never felt like quitting canoeing as much as i do now. i've tried praying on this and today during sermon i was rather distracted because i kept thinking 'should i stay or should i go?' and where i would be without the team. well, nowhere perhaps.
yesterday i had follow up with jiaxin in church and it was quite good. we talked about quite a lot of things. i told her a lot of things about my dad, and honestly, everytime i tried telling my friends i seemed to be only skimming the surface of details, but yesterday it felt like someone was really listening for once.
char and her guy came over today and they were very very sleepy. it was like a gathering of jack johnson fans. how wonderful :)
sorry. i know this entry is extremely messy and disorganised. but that's how i feel.
anyway. when i first read the lyrics of this song i immediately thought of somebody whose name is very similar to mine. just a difference of a letter. don't ask me why.
Aqualung - Strange and Beautiful
I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart,
I see,
To me you're strange and you're beautiful.
You'd be so perfect with me, but you just can't see,
you turn every head, but you don't see me.
Chorus
I'll put a spell on you,
you fall asleep
I'll put a spell on you,
and when i wake you, I'll be the first thing you see.
and you'll realise that you love me.
yeah...yeah
sometimes the last thing you want comes in first,
sometimes the first thing you want never comes,
I know the waiting is all you can do,
sometimes,
(Chorus X2)
yeah...yeah...yeah
yeah