>2007-01-04 - 1:11 a.m.


The Exorcist
>2006-10-23 - 7:04 p.m.

-During filming, Max Von Sydow's (Father Merrin) grandfather died of a heart attack.
-A total of nine people were killed in freak accidents on the set. (Similar incidents also happened during the filming of John Boorman's Exorcist 2: The Heretic.)
-During filming, one of Linda Blair's (Regan MacNeil) relatives died of a heart attack.
-During filming, Jason Miller's (Father Karras) mother died of a heart attack.
-During filming, the set burned down delaying the film six weeks.
-The film was banned in the U.K. for many years.
-To this day, the film is banned in Finland. (But what do you expect from a country that bannes Daffy Duck because he doesn't wear pants?)
-Three days after the film was released into cinemas, Jack MacGowran (Burke Dennings) died of a heart attack.
-When the film was released into cinemas people watching the movie were vomiting, fainting, screaming and running out of the theatres, crying, soiling themselves, having seizures, epileptic seizures, going into shocks, panic attacks, miscarriages, stillbirths, heart attacks even deaths. (Expecially during the crucifix masturbation scene.)
-When people were watching the film, many people even went into comas and to this day, some of those people are still in the comas.
-Many people were psychologically damaged so badly that they were sent to insane asylums.
-As, of 2005, a total of approximatley 1,500 people have died around the world watching The Exorcist.
-When the film was released into theatres, thousands of catholics made pilgrimages to the Vatican to protest the release of the film. There was so much unrest that the pilgrims even began to riot.

Planetshakers - Here I am
>2006-10-04 - 10:35 p.m.

Something in my heart
Burning like a fire
I want to live for You

Need Your touch right now
Fill me with Your power
Power to live for You my God

I will not be moved
I will stand for You

I will go where You send me
Jesus take me now I am Yours
I am Yours

Lay my life on the altar
Everything I give to You alone

Here I am
Here I am

Here I am send me

Take Off My Shoes by Delirious?
>2006-08-23 - 12:15 a.m.

I値l take off my shoes,
I知 coming in.
Untie this rope,
I知 staying with Him.
Love of my life,
I値l live and die,
Just for the moments
For my King and I.

Why did You call,
Why did You wait?
For someone so guilty,
Someone so fake.
There are no words
For my beautiful song.
Now I知 in the arms
Of my beautiful One.

So hold me,
Blow all the pride from my bones,
With Your fire.
Hold me,
Breathe on this heart made of stone,
Keep it pure.
Hold me,
Saviour of heaven and earth,
King forever.
Hold me,
Love of my life lead me on,
Through the fire, lead me on...

I値l take off this crown
And fall at Your feet,
The secret of joy
Are the moments we meet.

How could a man
With all of your fame,
Pull me from darkness
And call me by name.

So hold me today,
As I carry Your cross,
Into the desert
To find who is lost.
Look at my hands,
They池e still full of faith,
God keep them clean
Till we finish the race...

Exodus 3:5
"Then He said, "Do not draw near this place. Take your sandals off your feet, for the place where you stand is holy ground."

fun stuff
>2006-08-21 - 7:47 p.m.

got this from Maril's blog. the problem is diaryland doesn't have a comments thingy. hmmm.. tag me and i'll post a reply for you then! haha

Comment on this entry and:

1. I値l respond with something random about you
2. I値l challenge you to try something
3. I値l pick a colour that I associate with you
4. I値l tell you something I like about you
5. I値l tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I値l tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I値l ask you something I致e always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your blog

Fall in this place
>2006-08-06 - 9:57 p.m.

Take me to that place Lord
Where there's nothing else but me and You
Longing for Your presence
I know that You're calling me to You

Here I stand
I long for Your embrace
Nothing else could ever take Your place
Come Holy spirit
Fall in this place
I need more and more of You
Fill me again with the power of Your spirit

Lord I'm crying out for more and more of You

Because of who You are
>2006-08-03 - 7:18 p.m.

Because of who You are
I give You glory
Because of who You are
I give You praise
Because of who You are
I will lift my voice and say
Lord I worship You because of who You are

Jehovah Jireh - You're my Provider
Jehovah Nissi - You reign in victory
Jehovah Shalom - my prince of peace
And I worship You because of who are

Jehovah Rapha - You're my healer
Jehovah Shammah - You're always with me
Jehovah Sabbaoth - strong deliverer
And I worship You because of who You are

Jehovah Jireh - Provider
Nissi - victory
Shalom - Prince of peace
Rapha - Healer
Shammah - with me
Sabbaoth - Deliverer
Because of who You are

max lucado has a new book!
>2006-08-02 - 9:34 p.m.


Facing your giants by Max Lucado. Go and check out the front cover of the book!! Super cool man!

>2006-08-02 - 1:42 a.m.

For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, It will not tarry.

Habakkuk 2:3

Grown Up Christmas List
>2006-07-29 - 8:04 p.m.

Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies

Well, I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child
But my heart still can dream

So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need

(don't really like this part..i find it rather cheesy)

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
and wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up christmas list

As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath our tree

Well heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul

What is this illusion called the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth

In the garden of Gethsemane.
>2006-07-13 - 7:47 p.m.

This is a video I found on YouTube..decided to do a search after reading Jingfen's post (over at our teamhero blog). All throughout the video I just kept thinking of this extract from one of Max Lucado's books that I receive weekly. I've included it below.

by Max Lucado

As Jesus stepped into the garden, you were in his prayers. As Jesus
looked into heaven, you were in his vision. As Jesus dreamed of the
day when we will be where he is, he saw you there.

His final prayer was about you. His final pain was for you. His final
passion was you.

He steps into the garden, and invites Peter, James, and John to come.
He tells them his soul is 登verwhelmed with sorrow to the point of
death, and begins to pray.

Never has he felt so alone. What must be done, only he can do. An
angel can稚 do it. No angel has the power to break open hell痴 gates.
A man can稚 do it. No man has the purity to destroy sin痴 claim. No
force on earth can face the force of evil and win容xcept God.

典he spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak, Jesus confesses.

His humanity begged to be delivered from what his divinity could see.
Jesus, the carpenter, implores. Jesus, the man, peers into the dark
pit and begs, 鼎an稚 there be another way?

Did he know the answer before he asked the question? Did his human
heart hope his heavenly father had found another way? We don稚 know.
But we do know he asked to get out. We do know he begged for an exit.
We do know there was a time when if he could have, he would have
turned his back on the whole mess and gone away.

But he couldn稚.

He couldn稚 because he saw you. Right there in the middle of a world
which isn稚 fair. He saw you cast into a river of life you didn稚
request. He saw you betrayed by those you love. He saw you with a
body which gets sick and a heart which grows weak.

He saw you in your own garden of gnarled trees and sleeping friends.
He saw you staring into the pit of your own failures and the mouth of
your own grave.

He saw you in your Garden of Gethsemane預nd he didn稚 want you to be

He wanted you to know that he has been there, too. He knows what it痴
like to be plotted against. He knows what it痴 like to be confused.
He knows what it痴 like to be torn between two desires. He knows what
it痴 like to smell the stench of Satan. And, perhaps most of all, he
knows what it痴 like to beg God to change his mind and to hear God
say so gently, but firmly, 哲o.

For that is what God says to Jesus. And Jesus accepts the answer. At
some moment during that midnight hour an angel of mercy comes over
the weary body of the man in the garden. As he stands, the anguish is
gone from his eyes. His fist will clench no more. His heart will
fight no more.

The battle is won. You may have thought it was won on Golgotha. It
wasn稚. You may have thought the sign of victory is the empty tomb.
It isn稚. The final battle was won in Gethsemane. And the sign of
conquest is Jesus at peace in the olive trees.

For it was in the garden that he made his decision. He would rather
go to hell for you than go to heaven without you.

From And the Angels Were Silent
Copyright 1992, Max Lucado

>2006-07-12 - 4:32 p.m.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! hahahaha. I'm a geek la. At home studying on my birthday. Wahahahaha.

This is my first entry in I don't know how long.. Haha. Been so busy with so many things.

Anyway I just want to tell you how happy I am!!!! Haha. My church friends celebrated my birthday for me on sunday..and they bought me John Maxwell's "How To Be A People Person"!!! It's just the book I need la..

And I'm looking forward to tonight!!!!!! Wahahahhaha. I have a Bakerinz cake waiting for me in the fridge..the hazlenut one with a crunchy base..Wow! Haha.

And guess what I got from my eldest sister for my birthday? It's a snow globe!!! Not really snow la. More like glitter. And it comes with a wind chime that goes to the tune of the "Go to sleep now close your eyes try to think of tomorrow" song. And in the centre is the figurine of a cat made by the same artist as the one we bought our mom's urn from. So it has special meaning to us.. (: She bought the same thing of a different design for my other sister too! So now I guess we have to buy her one too..hahahaha. But she said that there are only two different designs..haha.

And I HAD four tubs of Ben&Jerry's (now it's down to three) in my fridge recently! Just that thought makes my tummy happy. Hahahahaha. NTUC is having an offer now..selling two tubs for $18+++ so my eldest sister bought like four tubs altogether. (So I just hijack without paying. Muhahahaha.)

And I'm going out to watch PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN II on friday!!! excited!

And Pastor Lia wrote me a birthday card!!!!! And less than a month ago she also wrote me a card to encourage me! Wow..I really feel super blessed la..SUPER BLESSED!!!

P.S.: I have an annoucement to make!! click on Kaiyuan's link!! she has a fantastic new blog!!! :D

Foie gras, anyone?
>2006-06-29 - 7:52 p.m.

Foie gras is a delicacy often promoted in gourmet restaurants. What is hidden from menus is the fact that the animals involved in its production, such as geese and ducks, suffer immense cruelty. A report by the World Society for the Protection of Animals in June 2000 describes the process: "The birds are commonly fed using a pneumatic pump forced down the throat, which injects up to half a kilo of maize and fat in a couple of seconds. This is repeated two or three times per day for up to three weeks, so that by the time it is slaughtered, a bird's liver will have swelled to between six and ten times its natural size. Many ducks and geese die prematurely from cardiac and renal failure, and liver haemorrhage."

Foie gras continues to be served in many restaurants in Singapore, a trend that does not seem to be diminishing. While previously a delicacy mostly served in French restaurants, it is now appearing on menus in other continental restaurants (and even in Chinese and Japanese cuisine).

For more information on the cruelty inflicted on animals in the production of foie gras, visit

>2006-06-20 - 11:03 a.m.

I will have no other gods before You
Only You will reign as my heart's king
I will have no other gods before You
I will put you first in everything

With all my heart
With all my soul
With all my might
I want to worship You

Holy Heart
>2006-06-18 - 8:07 p.m.

Wow..I just put in an entire album of Charlie Hall's music and I was randomly listening to his songs while studying last night and this song just came on... Wah..his voice sends me to heaven man.. Haha.

Charlie Hall - Holy heart

Oh my heart longs to be purified
Oh my heart longs to be refined

A holy heart is what I long for,
What I cry for, what I need
A heart that loves You,
A heart that hears You, fears You
And sees You as You are

Search my heart, O God and see in me
All offences, God, that there may be
Cry it out now

Refined in Your love, refined by Your blood
And the pure in heart will see You, will see You
We're cryin' out now

To gaze upon You
Purifies me
So purify me, purify me...

an old broken bible
>2006-06-05 - 3:08 p.m.

There is just something about an old and worn-out bible. I was just in my sister's room. She just left for a church camp overseas..and she left her study bible on her bed. We used to share it because it was very very very good (spirit-filled bible, what do you expect?) and there was only one of it. It isn't was loaned to her (something like permanently) by a church friend who's now using the amplified bible.

I opened up the bible and I read some notes she had written - of what God spoke to her during her quiet time, of her vision in life and dreams (real dreams, like nightmares) that she had. It felt nice to know that she put her relationship with her boyfriend in God's hands.. I've always been worried that her relationship with her boyfriend isn't good for her..because her boyfriend isn't a christian like she is, and I've seen how he would mock and criticise her when she listens to video sermons on the computer.. she also told me recently that he wasn't too happy that she decided to go for the camp, since her exam was actually on the very day of her return.

Well after reading her little notes I was just fingering the leather bonded cover of the bible..there are so many cracks in it, some parts have fallen out altogether. I guess its just like a momento. It's like an old cherished thing that you share with God, something that defined your relationship, strengthened it and pulled you through tough times. And the age of it speaks of the length of relationship, the ups and downs, the tears and the times of rejoicing. It speaks volumes.

Now, thanks very much to my sister, I have my own spirit-filled bible. It's still quite new. And though it isn't as attractive as the old and broken one, partly because its a hard cover, I just can't wait for it to age. To get worn with use. I can't wait for my relationship with God to grow. To look back many years on and remember the times when I gritted my teeth and clung onto my faith in Him, to remember the times when I laughed with Him. I love You, God.

>2006-05-25 - 8:26 p.m.

Something funny for all you econs people..

And something meaningful I got in my email today..

by Max Lucado

敵ood, I知 glad you池e sitting by me. Sometimes I throw up.

Not exactly what you like to hear from the airline passenger in the next
seat. Before I had time to store my bag in the overhead compartment, I knew
his name, age, and itinerary. 的知 Billy Jack. I知 fourteen, and I知 going
home to see my daddy. I started to tell him my name, but he spoke first.

的 need someone to look after me. I get confused a lot.

He told me about the special school he attended and the medication he took.
鼎an you remind me to take my pill in a few minutes? Before we buckled up
he stopped the airline attendant. 泥on稚 forget about me, he told her. 的
get confused.

Billy Jack was a little boy in a big body. 鼎an clouds hit the ground? he
asked me. I started to answer, but he looked back out the window like he壇
never asked. Unashamed of his needs, he didn稚 let a flight attendant pass
without a reminder: 泥on稚 forget to look after me.

When they brought the food: 泥on稚 forget to look after me.

When they brought more drinks: 泥on稚 forget to look after me.

When any attendant would pass, Billy Jack would urge: 泥on稚 forget to look
after me.

I honestly can稚 think of one time Billy Jack didn稚 remind the crew that
he needed attention. The rest of us didn稚. We never asked for help. We
were grownups. Sophisticated. Self-reliant. Seasoned travelers. Most of us
didn稚 even listen to the emergency landing instructions. (Billy Jack asked
me to explain them to him.)

Billy Jack would have understood the idea of grace.

Have you?

Many haven稚. We are sophisticated, mature. An epistle to challenge the
self-sufficient, Romans was written for folks like us. Confession of need
is admission of weakness, something we are slow to do. That痴 why I think
Billy Jack would have understood grace. It occurred to me that he was the
safest person on the flight. Had the plane encountered trouble, he would
have received primary assistance. The flight attendants would have bypassed
me and gone to him. Why? He had placed himself in the care of someone
One last thought. Billy Jack spent the final hour of the flight with his
head on my shoulder, his hands folded between his knees. Just when I
thought he was asleep, his head popped up and he said, 溺y dad is going to
meet me at the airport. I can稚 wait to see him because he watches after
From In the Grip of Grace
Copyright 1996, Max Lucado

Give me passion
>2006-05-23 - 7:42 p.m.

This article from was really helpful. It's almost as though I was writing this myself.

Give Me Passion
by Dana Ryan

鄭h cherie, Jacqueline whispered as she held my face in her soft, wrinkled hands, 渡e t弾n soucies pas.
Her gentle French phrase of comfort, meant to alleviate the grief I felt over my lack of passion for Christ, squeezed tears from my eyes instead. I couldn稚 simply 渡ot worry, especially when living beside her intense, convicting zeal. At the end of my student teaching experience I found myself envying my hostess, a 70-year-old, extremely poor, Christian woman named Jacqueline. I envied her for her joy, her overflowing love, and for the way her eyes lit up or filled up when talking about God. She didn稚 simply regurgitate biblical stories, facts and Christian lingo. She knew Him.

Returning to the United States, my apathy continued to haunt me, a condition made painfully clear in contrast to the memory of Jacqueline痴 fervor. I wanted to love God on more than a purely cerebral and factual basis. I knew who God was, that His Son died for me and that I would spend eternity with Him, but I felt detached. I knew that if someone asked me who God really was, I would only recite dusty Sunday School mantras and prescribed axioms. My heart and mind remained disconnected and I longed to unite them. But how could I ever come to truly know and love someone I couldn稚 see? Was it possible?

I never asked Jacqueline how she developed such a close and intimate relationship with Christ, but I figured it was probably like any other relationship: I needed to spend time with God in order to know Him. That made sense, but I still struggled with knowing how to pursue an invisible being. It was so much easier to 塗ang out with tangible people who talked back to me when I talked to them or who hugged me when I was discouraged. So I felt quite silly when I first started talking out loud to God, my words echoing off the walls of my apartment before dissolving into the carpet.

My quest continued and each time I read the Bible and prayed, I waited for the stirring, the supernatural zap that would send me into throes of passion for the Lord. Instead, I struggled each day with different excuses to not read my Bible and pray. There were many reasons to forego my time in the Word, though none of them valid. It felt an awful lot like hard work and discipline to develop a relationship. It was. But slowly, eventually, a change came over me.

True, I still could not physically 都ee God, but it felt as though previously closed 都piritual eyes opened. As I read God痴 Word and spoke out loud to Him, the Holy Spirit ministered by revealing God痴 presence to me. I felt Him in my apartment not in a tangible way, but in a way that connected to my soul, to the innermost part of me. By fulfilling the desperate longings of my soul, those longings felt when staring into a starry sky, God romanced me into an intimacy I never imagined. It went beyond fickle emotions and feelings, delving to a depth that made my breath catch.

Recently I致e heard Christians lamenting the fact they don稚 have this breathtaking intimacy with Christ. I identify with their angst, but in some cases I知 not concerned by it too. Unfortunately, I see many Christians who bemoan their apathy and then continue to wallow in it. It痴 like an overweight person who claims to want to lose weight, but keeps ingesting boxes of Twinkies. Good intentions don稚 count for much if we let bad habits and poor decisions rule us.

Some people may wonder why developing a closer relationship with Christ is akin to losing weight, when losing weight can be so difficult. After all, when the flowers of romance freshly bud, it doesn稚 feel like hard work to spend time with and get to know the object of your affections (though of course the work part comes along sooner or later). Why would pursuing a relationship with Christ be any different? Precisely because we humans want to be able to touch, to hear, and to see everything we interact with. Anything beyond the scope of our five senses remains abstract, seemingly unreal or at least less real. It takes a lot of perseverance to pursue a relationship with Someone outside the realm of our five senses day in, day out, all your life.

The problem with perseverance is that it痴 out of date. Society preaches that anything difficult may simply be abandoned for something easier because 土ou deserve it. I remember drifting around in my apartment sometimes, attempting to avoid the insistent urging of the Bible still sitting untouched on my couch. I wanted to know God and I knew that meant spending time with Him, but sometimes other activities held more appeal. Too many times I pushed God further down on my agenda, finally cracking open my Bible when I壇 already reached that semi-comatose state. By then, blurred words simply flitted past my drooping eyes. On a few occasions, however, I reluctantly turned down offers to hang out with friends since I still hadn稚 met with God. Each time I found myself richly rewarded and wondered why my accursed human nature always tried to keep me from the one thing I needed.

I still haven稚 arrived at a point where spending time in the Word is always first on my list of desires. It might be first on my list of priorities, but the lists of desires and priorities don稚 always match up. Our sin natures and the devil won稚 allow us to follow Christ痴 footsteps easily. It takes a firm, long-term commitment to put God first and to make time for Him, but it痴 a commitment you値l never regret. When He captivates your heart, you値l know exactly why.

Copyright ゥ 2003 Dana Ryan. All rights reserved. International copyright secured.

Hide & Seek (War Video)
>2006-05-14 - 8:46 p.m.

Just thought I share this video.. Don't think I need to say anything else.

Red Rain on 8 DAYS!!
>2006-05-07 - 2:33 p.m.

(click image to read 8 Day's write up on Red Rain! or turn to p.51 if you have a copy. hahaha.)

WOOT! Check this out! Hahaha. Red Rain is on 8 Days!

So amazing la.. our church is really going BIG this year! But then seeing the response from people I really doubt that 1000 seats would be enough..There's already 400+ of us! Well but then I guess that's good news! Maril I can't stop listening to sure! It's so niceee :D

The moment that you opened up the door
I knew I was safe for sure
The words you spoke breathed life into my heart
It's what I've been longing for
You said you'd never leave me
I know you'll never let me go

You are my star in the sky
You are the reason I'm alive
Your are my shelter from the storms in my life

At times I find it hard to conceive
You gave your life for me
And though you're gone
Forever you will be
Deep in the heart of me
You said you'll never leave me
I'll never let you go

I CAN'T WAIT!! Hahaha.

Your love is King... Crown You in my heart...
>2006-05-02 - 9:12 p.m.

We played soccer in school for the second week running today!

Weeeeeeee :)
I had so much fun! Partly because all of us girls were screaming away (there are 15 girls and 4 guys in my class). Poor Bonnie and Lindis collided at their heads. Hahaha. Can't wait to play softball next term! Anything is better than tennis!

I'm so excited that RED RAIN is coming!!! Honestly I haven't heard them live before because I missed my chance last year..but I have their "New Day" album that i've been listening to and I really like their songs! They're sort of like coldplay, except that the lyrics and cheerful and happy. I'll try to upload some songs asap once I get some help from music-on-your-blog-expert Ivan. Hahahaha. Still haven't been able to find a place where I can upload songs cos Angelfire keeps rejecting my IP. Must be the curse of cable.

And Kaisin's sister is pregnant!!!! Ahhhhh. SO exciting! Haha. And lucky girl gets to go to Paris AGAIN. Hmppph. Hahaha. I've only ever been to Asia! Haha but then I should count myself lucky to have been able to go so many places! :) And I've really enjoyed my experiences overseas..especially in Beijing! Would love to go back there :) At least once in my lifetime I want to go backpacking!!! Go to Tibet! And explore Europe on a budget.

Haha. The other day was I checking the Oxford Online Dictionary for some words that appeared in my lit text and I went to this page of new words in the dictionary! Haha and here's what I found.

A holiday in which each member of a couple travels separately to the same destination: without making contact, they then try to find each other, based on their insight into their partner's habits, likes, and dislikes.

Would be quite cool for a honeymoon eh?

Haha. And I finally managed to get my new template up! So cute right the little girl!!! Hahaha. The words are not actually taken from a Christian song or's actually a song by Sade!!! I guess I just couldn't help but see the song in a different light.

GP mock exam tomorrow! Ciao!